A mind split between the past and present seems to be torn between staying or going. A complex decision on taking the next step forward, potentially leaving everything he knew behind. Wishing he could take his current world with him through the next stage, he realizes that the doorway isn't big enough to fit.
The future brings the next step in his life. Adulthood, and the responsibilities of maintaining a life that is measured on stature and the love of a family that he will someday have. Impossible to avoid, he follows societies recommendations on how to achieve their goals, not his. If it were his world, he'd be in a tree house on some remote island with only a handful of people that he could stand being around without spearing.
The past is more like a memory every day. He reaches his hand back hoping that someone will tell him to stay, or that he will be able to hold onto a part of him that has been lost for years. Realizing that his strength and desire is obsolete in this scenario, he stops trying to hold on. If the past is meant to follow, it will.
His life is in a new chapter now, and the friends that he tried his hardest to hold onto from the previous pages have made it apparent that they have opened a different book, in which he is not a character in. Once loved by many from his life years ago, he is now a fading character in a dusty book that has found itself on the shelf once again.
He realizes that it means he must start somewhere else, and the new steps he must take to acquire it will be necessary to forget the past. Holding on to items, and an identity that fails to fit his new persona will only act as an anchor. In order to be truly happy, he must stop spreading himself so thin, and focus on the people who are there for him at this moment.
If the his past needs him, he'll be 4 hours north, and 2 minutes east. Bye Oregon.
Good writing. Enjoyed reading a few of your blogs. -Alayna
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